FCBC Peeps

tonight most of the fcbc ppl hung out. we were gonna go bowling but decided to just chill at derricks place. we first stopped by at albatross to eat some greasy, fatty mexican food. then we hung out at D's place js talking. first it was all about rachels 6 prom dates (5 were rejected) hahaha it was epic!!! lol then we went onto Tims, then elmers,, mines.. and then the final one was DERRICks hahahaha. his was really epic and kdrama. two best friends liking the same girl and him not ending up going to prom with his own girlfriend lol i told them about how __________ waited outside my house.. for a particular dance and stuff. i had so much fun and i screamed so much that i started to get a raspy voice by the end of the night :P

k .. overall its just monday.. and i have been overwhelmed with some weird emotions. sometimes i just want to tell some ppl that i will never be like her.. why cant you just stop playng around. as much as i want to be her, i cant. im michelle. you just have to take someone for who they are and not expect to much. i dont even know where this is going. i ranted to susan about how discontent i was today. i felt that im so disconnected and that i will never be a true girl. no im not sexually confused, but im just really dissapointed in myself. i hate the way i look, i hate the way i act, i just hate me. blehhh.