blehhhhh

HELL WEEK!!! man this week i got chem midterm and bio quiz.. actually not this week. TOMORROW! omgah haha luckily todays chem lab was easy, which takes some weight off my shoulders. lately, something has been really bothering me. i wish i can rewind time and js relive moments. there are so many things in life that i regret doing, so many things i wish that would happen or wouldnt happen. sometimes i just wanna be her, and i hate this feeling because i get so jealous of every little thing. i know no one is perfect but i dont want to be such a fail. i let my chem partner down, i always make mistakes and i keep forgetting small parts that are significant to the lab. i just want to be me and be happy about it. i cant wait till this weekend. i really miss cieno. she understands me and is always there. its soo awesome that we never argue.. or have any akward moments or just weird things. aight, gotta go back to studyingggg >< RAWRRRRRRRR

inspire

so today austin took me and lauren to k town to watch kollaborations small performance at Cafe Bleu. We arrived early so we decided to walk around and see if they are there already. we walked into cafe bleu and the girls were dressed up in high heels and nice dresses. they performers were having a press conference and the ppl told us to come back later. so we decided to walk around and we ended up at this lil cafe where we ate yogurt and chilled while watching some korean pop star dancing show. it was fun. then it was time. so we decided to go back to cafe bleu. we were again early and we didnt want to eat there cuz it was uber expensive. so we went to zion market and walkd around the big asian mall. finally, we arrived back into the lounge, and found a place to sit and chill. we decided to order the garlic fries. and we waited from 630-830 for them to start performing. first paul jisung kim sang and then JASON YANG playd a few minutes of super fast and amazing song. then finally clara chun, jason yang, and paul kim sang and playd a kings of leon song. they were AMAZINGGGG. we also got two free tickets cuz we were the first to arrive. btw i was almost kickd out of the place. it was a bar, and i wasnt old enough. wheewwww. the chich allowed me to stay ^^ we met lots of different ppl, especially the ppl that workd for kollaboration. at the end i wanted a pic with jason , so i askd him and we had a talk about violins and stuff and finally a pic YAYYYY~ lol watta good nite :D

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POKER FACE

i wish......

valentines day.. chinese new years yayyy ^^ today i went to church and had a great time with friends that i havnt seen for awhile. then i went to help mr huang find a pretty heart diamond necklace. there i saw my friends mother and we had a talk, but it was kind of awkward. after the shopping which wasnt fruitful, i ate with andy, nate, and melody at jade house. finally some asian food. after that i went home and susan and cieno came over to do hw. we ate and then i packed up reallyquick due to change of plans. and i went to christen house to do homework. i realized then i didnt have my house keys with me. so now i am locked outside of my house and mr huang cant give me my keys tonite. and tomorrow morning cieno is dropping me off at 5am cuz she has skool. iono wat imma do.

Just Stop & Appreciate

I came back to DB on Saturday afternoon. I spent some time alone watching some movies and just cleaning up my house. After dinner at Saigon Noodlehouse, i was going to stop by at Ralphs to pick up some junk food for the movie night. As i was backing out , i saw two blind men trying to figure their way through the wet,dark, maze of the parking lot. i was really worried about them being hit because many cars just zoomed past them as they cautiously try to find their way. I decided to quickly park my car and ask if they needed help because there were many cars and its dark. They agreed and we introduced ourselves. Victor held on my elbow as Steve held onto him. We walked towards Ralphs, and an employee guided them around..helping them shop. After shopping, susan and i helped Victor and steve cross DB Blvd to go back to their apt. After saying our goodbyes, i felt that we are so privilege to just go about our daily lives without any problems. These two men lost their sight and had to manuever around town with just canes. i felt so thankful for just being able to see, smell, touch, hear, and taste. People take advantage of so many things, and we just all need to stop and thank God for what he has given us.

that nite, cieno, shirley and susan came over , we sang happy bday and ate cake.then we watchd Proposal and we all fell in love with the guy, ANDREWWWWW <3. after the movie, we decided to be typical girls at a slumber part and do our hairs and makeup . then we took pictures and tried learning some dances (epic fail). wat a night. im soo thankful for such great best friends that are always by your side no matter what.

people watching

today ended super duper good. i had 12 hours of sleep last nite, and woke up finally to get ready for school. my asian american class was uber boring and i kept daydreaming about nonsense. finally 3 :20! i quickly got up from my seat and walkd to mesa to meet up with issack. i thought he was going to park in the parking lot, but i found out i was on the wrong side of mesa. he parked in the mesa parking structure.. so i had to treck across to meet him. after meeting up with him, i had to go back to my dorms to drop off my things. we strolled around on ring road and sat down to js talk and catch up with each other. then it got cold so we decided to grab dinner at mesa commons,, we watchd chowder and ate our potatoes. ^^ then we walkd back to my room and chilled some more talking about life, school, relationships, and stuff. haha then we decided to go get some cha and chilled at the student center. it was a fun nite ^^

Sentence Home

Today in AAstudies, we watchd a movie about Cambodians. There were many cambodian americans that were deported back into their country because of the crimes they did whether or not it was big, small recent or not. There was this one guy that had to be deported back even though he had a family, stable job , and growing kids. he was in this detention thing for 10 months even though the crime he commited was atleast 2 decades ago. He was later released and got deported back. His four yr old daughter understands but doesnt even cry any more. As i was watching this, it js hurts me seeing how families are torn apart and how many parents had to watch their children get deported back. For some moments, i was really angry with our government. They were tearing up families and shredding lives of many ppl that grew up here. its js not fair. after discussing jess as we walkd outta class, i realized how thankful i should be. i have so much around me and i dont stop to be atleast a lil thankful.